Cairns and Crocus… and the Spirit of Place…

In my last blog I spoke of the spirit of place and the transference of energies that make such wonderful stories of mystical overlays. This piece I offer, is a short story from my collection in Scraps and Wild Gatherings, published in 2018. Prior to this, on returning to the UK for a trip down memory lane, rediscovering my earthly roots and birthplace, the stories in this volume took shape and grew into what has become an offering to my ancestry. Enjoy…

Cairns and Crocus

Spirit of Place

Chapter 1

An elusive breeze ruffles heart-shaped leaves. From outside the grove the Birch appear randomly sown. Closer in, it is evident, they create a ragged circle. Increasing in force, the breeze becomes a soughing wind. Autumn-toned leaves swirl away. A pale form walks the circle. Young and willowy, her saffron yellow dress matches the Crocus at her feet.

A sigh echoes. Busy Wren freeze in their seed and bug harvest. As the sound dissipates, one trills – its rustling feathers send a wave of warm-scented perfume, spilling from green-antlered Oakmoss.

Pia

Chapter 2

Sunlight filtering through the swaying canopy above, plays on my head, a warm balm on this chilly day. Chittering birds fly in, squabbling over a large moth, roused from daylight dreams. One perfect wing floats down, landing on my open sketchpad. A gold-powdered smudge. I focus on a small bloom, Saffron Crocus, Crocus sativus, a litany in Latin, rare in Victorian forests.

Energy surges from the earth, accompanying the words, “They keep me bound.” I have no idea what this means. I hear them, when the honey-pungent, Crocus scent engulfs me. Maybe I’m falling into psychosis? Hearing voices in the trees. Wispy visions of a girl reflects in pellucid dewdrops. It’s morning, but the dew has long since evaporated.

I laugh at the notion, although unnerved by my thoughts. I’ve visited this curious stand of trees often and find it odd that spring bulbs flower into autumn. There is nowhere else in the forest where a stand of Birch thrives amongst native trees. Perhaps there was a settlement here. I stand to pace, careful not to crush fragrant blooms while stretching my stiff back.

A twig snaps! The sound, like gunshot, ricochets around the grove. A Doe bounds into the glade. Exhibiting no fear, accustomed to my presence, she is another anomaly in the landscape and classified as feral to purists. All I see is a magnificent, sentient being as I back away to lean against an elder Birch. It quivers in response… merges with my essence.

My foot nudges a moss-covered rock, dislodging it. A rumbling noise has me clinging to the tree. A spill of rocks cascades across the ground, sandstone and glinting quartz. Earthquake? My nervous heart pumps, adrenalin surges. I’ve never stepped into the circle before, its message of intolerance at my curiosity, evident. Now, despite my panic, it beckons. I clamber over strewn rocks to stand in the heart of the grove. The Birch-canopy of amber and gold quivers. Trees shudder as I pass. Silence returns. I can see a shape that might be building foundations, reminding me of the stone Cairns in Britain.

I gasp. Falling to my knees, I stare in horror at the slender foot revealed, jutting from beneath the rubble. Skin, at first blue-tinged, then only a frail, skeletal foot remains. I shake my head, to clear my vision. A Cairn, impossibly Celtic, here in these Australian forests? A murmurous sigh fades from in the trees. Sobs escape me. Darkness sweeps down, smothering me in a cloak of silence.

When I wake, chilled to the bone, there is no trace of the Cairn or fragile remains, just a pile of mossy rocks on which the twisted Birch exert their unyielding hold. Scattered petals of rusty red, glisten… bright daubs of blood in the grass.

Michael

Chapter 3

Michael walked, careful of every step. He cursed silently as a twig snapped underfoot. Stalking a wild Doe, he watched her pause, bowing her head to something unseen. It took a second to align the telescopic lens, aim and fire. No gun, his weapon, but a digital camera. Whirring, electronic clicks, sent the Doe leaping. As she sprang, he got the shot he was after, her brown and white flecked hide, silhouetted against the broad trunks of silvery Birch-bark. Proud neck raised, eyes rolling, she fled. His second shot captured her grace.

He eagerly viewed the results on the camera display and, stepping back, oblivious to all else, tripped over a canvas bag, spilling its contents. Pages of detailed flower images blurred and shiftedunder his gaze. He felt suddenly woozy. The parchment sheets appeared faded, the bag, mouldy with age. Kneeling, he stuffed everything back unceremoniously.

With a cry of outrage, a slender woman launched herself at him. “What are you doing? You have no right to go through my things. How dare you! Look what you’ve done to the flowers!”

He dropped the bag, causing the contents to spill over crushed blooms. “Flowers? What flowers? No, please …I’m so sorry, I tripped and was just…” He blinked. The bag was no longer mould-covered but a clean, modern, leather satchel.

“…wanting to see what you could steal?” She finished his sentence.

“No!” Michael cried, outraged. “I’m no thief. You left your stuff lying around.” He stopped in his tracks. Close up she was exquisite. Before he could blink, rich perfume invaded his senses. Her features blurred. Bag and girl were gone when he came to, sprawled on the ground among whispering trees.

Raindrops pattered on the sparse foliage above. He smelled the lingering fragrance of flowers, crushed by his body. Flowers? Seeing a riot of colour, he gathered his wits and checked his camera for damage.

“Flowers! There were no flowers here before,” he muttered, “and the trees had leaves. It’s like autumn and spring in one place.”

His camera bleeped. Glancing down at the red-light flashing, he cursed the unusually short battery life, then paused, staring at an image he’d not consciously taken. It was the Doe, but superimposed behind her on the Birch-bark was a translucent figure.

He blinked. It vanished. Again, he felt dizzy. Three hours passed while he lay comatose and the trees wept their leaves.

Pia

Chapter 4

I return the next day; the trees are not welcoming but the flowers are blooming. There’s no trace of any crushed under trampling feet. Bemused, I sit to take it in, feeling anxious in the energy. “What’s the history here?” I wonder. A voice within replies, “You know. You just need to remember.”

Sighing, I settle to work on yesterday’s sketches of Saffron Crocus, adding rich orange- colour to spicy stamen, yellow to curve-edged petals, green to sheathed leaves. It’s quiet. No birds, no rustling leaves, a carpet of skeletal leaves has fallen overnight. “How odd,” I mused.

An icy draft raises hairs on the back of my neck; the Doe stands just inside the grove alone. Alarmed, she paws the ground, releasing pungent, leafy odours. Behind her, faintly outlined, is the woman. She is agitated, striding the circle, wide eyes staring.

What’s happening to me? Haunting images interrupt my sleep. Too real, all pervasive, they overflow into my waking state, beginning with dreams of the Birch grove, the vision of the spectral, saffron robed girl.

Why me? Self-indulgent tears well and the Doe springs away. I pace again, restlessly aware of my shadowy companion.

Michael

Chapter 5

Surprised to see the woman from yesterday at the grove again, Michael hid. He watched as she paced, crying. He wanted to reach out but witnessing her evident fragility, knew intervention could be counterproductive.

Last night he researched regional stories of Dreamtime legends describing volatile, Spirit activity. He found nothing of note relating to settlers, but intrigued, he read…

This location is a place of women’s healing. Underground streams create vortexes of energy, conducive to birth and death rituals, evident in ancient cultures.

He brought himself back to the moment. Ghosting behind the sobbing woman was another. Her double, dressed in saffron robes that swirled around her ankles. She sang, sad words ringing clearly in the crisp air…

“Where do we move between here and there

What do we become in transition and where

To a place within? Meanderings, sweet or sour

…and then in sleep, lost, many an hour… yet

summer wings enfold me and I fly

soaring, shadow-less, I soar

Winter wings enfold me and I die

…’til summer’s sweet renewal comes once more

Ancient sounds emerging make their mark

Winter keeps her own notes in the dark

Spring’s light brings soft and fragrant tunes

…while autumn sounds her notes like silver moons

All the while I watch and wait for you

to sing your song in saffron-coloured hue

Each season turns anew upon the wheel

When will you wake

…and in that sweet transition truly feel?”

Scents of saffron reached him. Looking down, he saw a tiny flower, knocked sideways by his careless feet. Saffron, a scented herb used in curry and cake alike. Saffron, the colour of the crying woman’s shirt and the robe of her translucent other. He knew he was witnessing a mystery, a magickal overlap in time. He had no means to comfort her. Not after the events of the previous day.

Pia

Chapter 6

I hear her song and promise I will discover what happened to leave her haunting the site. There seems to be an overlay to what I’m seeing, another scene drifting in and out of a different time and place. Leaning against my favourite tree, I listen, the words invoke grief… grief I’m not aware of personally experiencing. I listen, hearing the music to her song, feeling the rhythmic throb of a Bohdran vibrating deep in my belly and the accompanying, sobbing tone, of Uilleann pipes.

Suddenly other figures are weaving through the trees. It’s like looking through misted glass. What I thought were people dancing with her, are a group of huntsman, well dressed but not of this century. I hear hounds baying. The Doe bolts, but the girl stands proudly erect, waiting. There is nowhere to run or hide. Hounds, and shadowy huntsmen, burst into the glade. One, tall and gaunt, approaches her. Behind them, I see a building of sorts, its rough, circular shape, reminiscent of a crude, squat croft. She backs away. I see the fear in her eyes as he reaches her, pushing her roughly inside. His men jeer and hoot obscenities.

Then I’m there with the cruel-faced man. I feel her horror, her sense of inevitability permeates, and I feel faint from the fear of it.

“Witch,” he hisses, “you will die for your sins and no one will mourn you or send you to your Summerlands.” He spits the words at her.

When he is done with her, she is dry-eyed. Seeing her thus, her strength is enough to pull me back to myself. I scream at him, but he can neither see nor hear me. For a moment, she sees me. Our eyes meet across the centuries and thousands of miles. Briefly, we are one mind, one soul. “Free me,” she whispers.

Her murderer screams, “Burn Witch!” In my horror, in the unreality of it all, I giggle, thinking he could find something more original to say than words from an old movie, but it’s no movie. It’s real. Somewhere a young woman experienced this terrible death. Was it I? I will hear her screams always.

The hounds scent me, sniffing at my feet, unable to see my substance. One whimpers, licking at my hands. He can see me, sense me, as I lean against the ancient tree that trembles against my back.

I watch numbly as the man re-emerges, slamming and bolting the door behind him. Smoke belches from the roof, dry thatching ignites in a roaring shower of sparks. More crude comments, yelled by the watching men, chill my fear to a cold, seething rage. They may wear respectable clothing but they are worse than the lowest, ugliest life form to me. I am helpless to change a thing.

With a scream, I fight off arms that come from behind. Kicking and cursing, I turn, scratching at the man’s face. He holds me tight, whispering, “Be still. It’s okay. You had some sort of nightmare vision. Shhh now.”

He manages to calm me. I realise it’s the man from yesterday. I pull away, although I really want to hold on tight. I scream at him but it’s only in my head. I reel with shock. The vision fades and all that’s left is a Cairn of stones and a fragile, blue-veined foot. Then it’s gone too and the grove is still, but for the fleeting notes of her passing. A tendril of wood smoke carries fluttering parchment scraps, covered with intricate drawings of Saffron Crocus away into the forest.

“Michael,” the man says to me and I pull myself together, taking his proffered hand. It’s smooth and warm to my ice-cold one.

“Pia,” I reply. “Er …did you see …hear anything before?” My breath hitches. My lungs struggling to draw in air.

He reaches for me again in concern. “I heard music and saw a girl in a saffron dress, dancing. Then I heard screams, yours and hers.”

“Then I’m not going mad?” I giggle again, hearing hysteria in my high, tremulous notes.

“I think you had some sort of vision. Did you fall asleep or were you lucid? You were screaming at someone. You sobbed a name but I couldn’t understand it. It sounded, maybe Gaelic? Geni…?”

“Oh, I was lucid all right.” My voice breaks as I fall to my knees in the flowers.

Again, Michael holds me until my crying is spent and I manage to tell him what I witnessed. Instead of scoffing, he surprises me. “Well at least we have a story to follow up on. Although I’m sure it’s not from here, but somehow, a sending from another layer in time.”

“Another layer?” I repeat, hypnotised by his soothing voice.

“It’s okay. You can trust me. In fact, I think I have my credentials in my wallet.” He grins an open, friendly grin. “I’m a hypnotherapist. Well, that’s my day job. I’m a photographer too and I caught something on camera yesterday that made me come back to this place today. It’s haunted.”

His candid nature is refreshing. He takes out his camera, and searches for an image. It’s the girl in the saffron dress. Her face is mine. Everything shifts sideways. He calms me again and we sit to talk things through, his hand warming mine. I hear laughter from the grove and spin around. There she is, whole and happy, humming her haunting song. She dances the circle once before vanishing into the trees.

Michael drives me home, although it’s only a short walk. We agree to meet in a few days when he will hypnotise and regress me, back through the scenes I experienced.

I go back to the grove, but never experience the visions again. I often hear her song, until one day it simply ends. Her last note drifts away on a sigh. I see her in dreams.

Someone, somewhere, stumbled across a Cairn in a forest far away from here. Archaeologists discovered ancient human remains, which, later, they reburied under moss-covered stones.

A plaque reads…

R.I.P

We don’t know her story or name. She was a woman of approximately 20 years, who died, possibly after raiders came through. It was a time of witch-hunts, as Christianity made its way across the Isles. We can safely assume, by the well-preserved pots of herbal unguents and remains of dried Saffron that escaped a fire, she was an herbalist. Enough to be classified a Witch and executed.

We ask that you tread carefully here. Saffron Crocus grow in abundance. Scraps of cloth discovered, showed traces of Saffron dye from these same plants.

May she find peace.

Walking to the grove a few months later, I catch up with an elderly couple, going the same way. Their accents are broadly English as they greet me with a cheery hello, smiling as I pass.

The woman stops abruptly, blanching as she looks at me. Recovering, she says shakily, “Excuse me, do you happen to know where there’s a grove of Birch trees here?”

“Why yes, I’m heading there. It’s just a bit further.” They glance at me furtively, speaking with muted voices as we walk. When we reach the grove, they fall silent. I’m about to leave them to their reverie when the woman asks my name.

“Oh well, Pia… Pia Trethaway,” I tell her.

Exchanging glances and a nod, they tell me the grove is identical to one on their land. Archaeologists carbon-dated remains of a girl, discovered under a pile of stones. A Celt ancestor, they tell me excitedly. Reaching into her pocket the woman takes out an odd image. It’s a digital, facial reconstruction of the woman, found in the rubble. My face. I gasp, remembering my dream.

They tell me of Padarn Woods, Cornwall, from where the tree seeds and bulbs growing here, originated. Their Australian cousins brought seeds to Australia for planting around their homestead, to remind them of the Trethaway family in the Old Country.

Spirit of Place

I am earth, moist clay, trickling water, oozing sap. Suction exerted, my body, liquefied, moves up through twisting root. Under tender, silver bark, lichen and moss, I pass. All awareness gathers in one small seed. A cell of all my memories in one spark of life, before I sleep, dormant, enveloped.

Light awakens me; I recall snow, rain, heat and mist. Movement, the wheel of life spins on. I hear seasons change, a tinkling note. A leaf clinging tenuously lets go, as I must, all I once was.

Life is a strange omnium-gatherum of colour and odour, the light blinding in velvet-wet darkness. I push upwards, a shoot breaking free through Saffron clouds.

I have only fleeting memories of how I came here, being other than I once was.

I am the Genius Loci… Spirit of Place.

Where do we move between here and there?

What do we become in transition and where?

Space within, meanderings sweet or sour

…and then in sleep, lost, many an hour

…yet, summer wings enfold me and I fly

Soaring, shadow-less, I soar

Winter wings enfold me and I die

…’til summer’s sweet renewal comes once more

Ancient sounds emerging make their mark

Winter keeps her own notes in the dark

Spring’s light brings soft and fragrant tunes

…while autumn sounds her notes like silver moons

All the while I watch and wait for you

To sing your song in saffron-coloured hue

Each season turns anew upon the wheel

When will you wake

…and in that sweet transition truly feel?”

What do you think? Did the birch seeds carry memory of their ancestors all the way from Britain and was the imprint of the young victim of atrocities, strong enough to sow her cell memory by blood into the seeds, to heal ancestral pain?

Walk softly… you never know on who’s bones you tread… Awen /|\

Penny

Photography, art and words, copyright ©️ Penny Reilly all rights reserved.

Scraps and Wild Gatherings…

The story that began the journey into my book, Scraps and Wild Gatherings, of the same name was published in 2017. It was a year or so in the writing and spoke through my love of my country of origin’s mythology and also of the diversity and mystery that abounds in the wildwoods.

Soon there will be a page here dedicated to short stories and book tempters for everyone to enjoy, who signs up for my website mailing list. I’ll also let everyone know of special prices and deals in all the sales channels… but I digress… here for you is Scraps and Wild Gatherings, copyright of course, to moi… a tale of the Wild God who is said to manifest in times of great need for both people and planet… enjoy… and may it bring you a different awareness to ponder on…

Scraps and Wild Gatherings…

1

A male form stepped silently from the autumn-toned woods. His clothes, of faded brown and mossy green, rustled like their crunchy counterparts underfoot. Taking time to brush himself down, he looked nonetheless, dishevelled for his efforts. Running his hands through thick chestnut hair that dreadlocked easily, his fingers snagged on tiny objects caught in the tangled strands, fragile offerings from his woodland kin.

He journeyed, simply journeyed, fast, manifesting in the lives of people whose tales he heard on the restless wind. Cerne was a traveller, but on occasion, he heard a cry that tugged at him so hard, he had to follow the call. There was no gainsaying it.

He could sense The Lady as she moved about her business in the wood. Her presence meant he was not alone in his endeavours. It was close to Lughnasadh and an almost full super-moon hung in the velvet night sky, a pale balloon. A pond shimmered in the glow. Mist drifted over it, making the pond a cauldron of light. His thoughts stirred it to movement. Tendrils crept across the ground, white fingers seeking. He felt The Lady again as she stirred his innermost places. Her hand caressed his cheek and pulled his hair. “Her Other. Her One,” her whispered words, the susurration of birds’ wings, brushing past him with her love. 

His boots squeaked on the frosted ground. Autumn leaves, pellucid, frozen, ice-droplets winked in the moonlight.

As he broke cover, a dog howled in greeting, not in fear, for he was their Lord. He whispered soothing words and the hound fell quiet. Other creatures stirred. He spoke in his mind to each in turn. Another followed him. Never far from his side at this time of year, his hound, Argentea, his fur, silver to match the fading moon, wobbling in her descent, on the edge of the world, before plunging, elegantly downward, to shine elsewhere on another landscape. Dawn lifted the mist, suckling at it, pulling it across the icy landscape. Below in the valley, wisps of smoke rose from the old farmhouse nestled there.

A young woman shifted in her bed …he felt her pain in inflamed joints and eased them, drawing a Sigel of healing with long brown hands. An older woman, one he knew well, stirred in her sleep. She coughed… he whispered a soothing rhyme to her, one she knew from childhood, whilst pulling thick ropes of mucus from her throat and chest. She smiled and, sighing in relief, slept on.

2

Grace Ludlow, walked the light-dappled woods. Late flowering wild violet and crocus added subtle fragrance to woody aromas of leaf-mulch and pine needles. Bright toadstools grew in circles under the canopy of ancient trees. Her sharp eyes noticed one of them had a single, tiny bite from its edge. Poor creature who’d nibbled… it would be a nasty death. She sighed at the thought, realising she sighed a lot lately. Brushing against a towering Oak released the heady scent of Oak Moss, which brought back in a rush the memory of her grandmother’s favourite, earthy perfume. She shut off the thought… a metal door slamming in her head.

Rain pattered on the crisp leaves underfoot. Those still clinging stubbornly in the canopy above, began to fall in shifting, coloured swirls as she walked toward home, creating for a second a shrouded form, before they floated to the ground.

     Reaching the gate between herb garden and orchard, she breathed the thin, cold air, easing and stretching her slender frame from left to right. Pain spread like fire through her back, down her legs. She was used to pain and it was a sure sign summer was over. Autumn’s chilly damp crept into her bones and joints during the night. She’d had rheumatic fever as a child, had overcome much to combat the pain arthritis delivered, the anxiety that accompanied it and sworn it would never get her down for more than a heartbeat. Grace knew it would change nothing to mourn a, so-called, normal life, for normal she was, the gardens surrounding her, testimony to that.

     She paused to lean on the gate, listening to the wind and the sudden lull in the chorus of birds. It felt chill and there was a sense of something impending …mysterious, unknowable. Although she giggled at her own fancy, she knew there was much that lay beyond the veil, unseen. Turning her head slowly, she made out the definite shape of a man standing on the edge of the Wood, watching her keenly, his features hidden with the light behind him. He appeared and vanished again in seconds, leaving Grace with a vague feeling of unease mixed with a leap of energy akin to sexual arousal. She felt her cheeks redden and heard a deep-bellied laugh from the Oak Grove.

     Perturbed but not afraid, she went indoors to light the lamps, close the curtains and stoke the fire. A longing to know overcame her, tinged with regret at his departure and the fear he might sneak up and peer into her windows. Although she shuddered, it was anticipatory. Goodness, what am I thinking? He could be one of the travellers, or a vagrant …he could …he might …she didn’t finish, blushing again at her own thoughts. 

3

Dusk plunged into night, taking no time to linger. Clouds scudded across the face of the rising harvest moon. Grace slipped outside again, to haul in enough firewood for the night and early morning, closing the shutters over the kitchen windows, against the cold. It was the room she lived in most, warm and cheery, her favourite, ratty old chair pulled close to the hearth where she could watch a movie on her laptop or play music until she dozed off.

Slouch, her fat mouser, huge and gnarly as old cats become, would join her, sidling up, before burrowing into the cushions beside her until he literally slouched in the seat, almost pushing her off. He’d been her grandmother’s cat originally but when Grace arrived on the scene, he deserted his long-time companion and followed Grace everywhere. Brought to the farm with the idea he would be an outside cat to keep the mice at bay, Slouch had other ideas, refusing to sleep in the barn, choosing the chair on the hearth, with great disdain.

His name originated from his low slung, slouching gait. Short legged, his belly almost brushed the ground as he slouched along. He was the cause of much amusement between Grace and her grandmother, Meredith, as they worked the garden together or strolled the land, wildcrafting from the bounty of the West-Midlands landscape. His passion was catnip, and the resulting euphoria he displayed, falling over or rolling on his back, tipsy, was a common and hilarious sight.

Grace discovered her passion for gardening, working side by side with Meredith, who taught her the ways of nature in more than the simple growing of pretty plants, including how to look carefully to see what a plant needed, when to trim or feed, when they were sick. There was a more magickal side to Meredith’s teachings too, little snippets of old lore that barely had names to describe them. Meredith simply called it The Old Ways, clamming up whenever Grace asked what she meant by this.

“Soon, you’ll be ready… soon enough,” she said enigmatically.

Soon after, Meredith’s health began to fail, slow to recover after a tenacious virus laid her low for months. Suddenly, an urgency dwelt behind her words as she shared the most intriguing plant lore training imaginable.

“Every plant has its own identity,” her grandmother said, “their Signature, each an individual as each person. Nothing is ever wasted, nothing left to chance.” Meredith encouraged Grace to witness the natural world in new ways, but then slipped away in her sleep just a few months later, leaving Grace her quaint old farmhouse, with its cherished gardens and orchard.

Orphaned as a child, Grace had been unaware there was any of her immediate blood-line left. One day, by chance, she walked through a farmer’s market in the pretty village of Padarn, set amongst rolling hills, when she heard someone shout her name.

“Grace, Gracie, is that you?” a melodious voice called. Turning around, she came face to face with an older version of herself and knew instinctively, this was her maternal grandmother. Meredith insisted, with an air of quiet mystery, Grace call her by her given name and would not be led to explain more than…

“Names have power, a resonation, a note in the melody of all things. They must be used with respect. Titles are just that, labels, which is why, in my day, we weren’t allowed to call our elders by their first name

Meredith, not keen to let her out of her sight any time soon, took Grace by the arm as if it were the most natural thing in the world, leading her to the little corner cafe on the green, declaring, “My treat.” They sat and talked away the years since Grace’s parents died, as if they’d never been.

There were no suspicious circumstances leading to their deaths, just a freak accident. Perhaps an animal ran in front of them causing them to swerve off the road into the tree, Meredith speculated. Under the instructions in their will, Grace was sent to live with close friends of her parents. Her only known relative, Aunt Kaye, her mother’s sister, was a traveller, with no intention of limiting her activities by taking on a child barely in her teens, omitting to mention, Grace’s grandmother was alive and lived in Padarn, simply because the family were estranged.

Margaret and Ian Glover took her in and were not unkind, just somewhat, emotionally removed. Being childless, business people, they had little knowledge of how to raise a growing girl, other than to give her the best education they could afford. It helped that Grace’s parents hadn’t left her penniless.

Her guardians were, however, alarmed at Grace’s reluctance to enter the world of academia. She had a leaning toward natural science and alternative thought. Mythology in literature fascinated her, and she battled against their suspicion of anything less than scientific data, unless it was anthropological, or at least, said with pained mien, historically factual. They feared even more for her sanity when she showed an interest in the oldest pagan traditions. Grace dared not argue that it was anthropology.

“We always knew your parents were” they said, sotto voiced, “…ahem, a little strange.” as though someone might overhear and arrest Grace for her interest. 

Smart at seventeen, and with no intention of upsetting the people her parents had chosen as guardians, she appeared to confine her interests to things they could never fault. Grace was a sweet-natured girl, showing little of the pain and turmoil going on behind her lovely face. She believed unfalteringly, someone else in her family was alive somewhere but just couldn’t be found, which further sparked her interest in alternative, ancient philosophies that gave credence to an afterlife and the importance of ancestry. Covertly, she studied meditation, the power of intuition and psychic phenomena, secretly wondering about the otherworldly things that so intrigued her.

When Meredith came into her life, she was just at an age to begin making important choices for her future. She dreamed, on occasion, of a voice, calling her by name, but when she looked around in her dreamscape, no one was there. One night, the recurring dream altered. At the edge of sight, the periphery of vision that forces one to turn quickly, yet fears to see, a figure stood hidden in the shadow of great trees. It brought her rapidly awake, her heart pumping.

On the day Meredith called out to her, she had been overwhelmed by a sense of Deja-vu. The voice, the scene, even the scent of the market square, the trolley of blooms the flower-seller wheeled by, were etched in her memory from that dream. 

Sadly, they had only seven, shared years, but there was a lifetime of love and learning packed into them. Now, at twenty-four, Grace had a life only dreamed of, despite at times her own physical limitations and, more recently, Meredith’s absence, which left a gaping void in her belly, almost akin to feelings of constant hunger. Burrowing deep into her studies, helped distract Grace from sadness. Nothing alleviated the pain of loss except her love of the land, which led to a journal of daily thoughts on the seasons, as nature’s wheel turned. This became a regular blog, spinning off to become poetic studies about country living, done simply. She took courses in horticulture and viticulture, in foods that heal and the ancient art of herbs for tinctures and tonic wines. Her skills with food became somewhat legendary after she added a professional cooking course to her résumé. From this, her idea grew to set up a small business using her own produce, manufacturing herbal wines, cooking homegrown foods in a restaurant that had a wine-tasting area adjoining.

     All she needed now was an original business name.

 4

Grace cycled from town one morning after visiting the post office, parcels balanced precariously in the basket at the front. She’d put up a notice for a strong pair of hands to help with the heavier work. As she peddled along the drive, a strange, yet familiar figure, stepped from the trees, bringing with him the warmth of a summer’s day in his eyes, despite the current chill of autumn. He was accompanied by a huge hound, who took an immediate liking to Grace. Worried the dog would knock her off balance, the stranger whispered to his four-pawed friend in an unfamiliar tongue. On Grace asking what language it was, he replied, “It’s a Fae tongue, Argentea understands,” he said with a wry grin, his words alluding to the intelligence in the giant hound’s eyes. Her curiosity quickened, but before Grace could ask what he meant, he continued, “I’ve come about the advertised work?”

“But I only just posted it on the community notice board a half hour ago. How do you know of it?”

“I keep my ear to the ground,” he replied. “I have strong hands.” He held out lean, long-fingered hands for her inspection, “and a strong back too,” quoting her ad, verbatim. “What do you need done? I need only board and lodging. The barn will do, for I’m used to sleeping beneath the stars.” His grin was mischievous. “So, what can I do for you?”

     Grace stuttered her reply. “We …ell, the vines need weeding around the base and feeding. Some may even be ready to harvest; it’s come early this year after all the rain. Do you know about plants then or are you more a handyman?”

     “I’m handy, Grace,” he grinned again, summing up her trim figure in a glance, “and I know much about plants. I’ll just stash my stuff in the barn,” he indicated the bag on his shoulder, which looked like a music case, “then take a look at those vines for you, will I?” and strolled away.

Grace could have sworn his clothing took on the colours of bright green leaves and his hair a tangle, like matted roots. A rush of warmth hit her cheeks, flushing them a tender pink. The blush didn’t stop there, flowing down her body in a liquid rush of longing. She recalled the similar energy she’d felt only nights before, then realised she’d not asked his name. “It’s Cerne,” he called from the barn, “Lleu Cerne.” 

“How did you…?” She called out, but unwilling to engage, she walked away to continue her work in the herb garden. Lleu …he must be Welsh or Cornish, she thought.

     Slouch appeared from beneath the barrow she’d left in readiness, winding his way between her legs and generally making it difficult for her to work. When she pushed him away, he simply jumped onto the wicking bed she was weeding and butted her face with his knobbly head. Climbing up her back when she rebuked him, caused Grace, to almost fall headlong into the mulch. Hands grasped her shoulders, pulling her back firmly. She struggled, but they were warm and strong and again, a surge of delicious energy coursed through her body and she found herself leaning back into his broad chest. He turned her around to face him. “Are you okay?” he asked, his eyes on hers, as blue as the flowering rosemary she tended.

“Yes, thank you.” A frown formed creases between her eyebrows. Reaching out, Lleu smoothed them away with a touch. Pain, which she normally felt keenly at any jolt or jar, eased away as if by magic. “Who are you?” 

     His smile was kind. He exuded the warm scent of moss and loam. “I’m a traveller. I go where I’m needed, for a while at least, before the Mother calls me.”

“I don’t understand. You talk in riddles. Your dog is like a silver-grey wolf and you smell wonderful.”

He roared with laughter at the horrified look on her face. “Oh no! Did I say that aloud?” 

“Aye you did, but there’s no harm done, for you smell like the rosemary you love, and the sweet scent of hay.”

     They studied each other a while longer. “Will you come to dinner this evening?” Grace asked, tentatively.

“Why, you’d invite me in?” His mischievous smile broadened but there was no sense of any ulterior motive behind them.

“Yes.” Grace said, simply.

“Then yes, Grace. I’ll be there at dusk.”

Autumn Spirit

 5

Grace spent time on her appearance that afternoon. Meanwhile a pot of soup simmered on the hob and cornbread baked in the oven. It had been a long while since she’d felt female and lovely, she mused as she dressed in her favourite amethyst-coloured skirt and white peasant blouse. She knew she wasn’t ugly by any means, but shy and a little stiff with strangers… the local men thought her a little prickly. Lleu brought out another side to her she’d not felt before. A languorous heat, spread through her body when he was near. It made her movements slower, graceful, as she groomed and readied herself as if he were already her lover.

Promptly, as dusk hazed the windswept autumn skies, Lleu arrived on her doorstep, a bunch of wild orchids in one hand, an unusual bottle in the other. Across his back was slung the bag he’d taken to the barn. Seeing her stare at it, he said, “My pipes, they go everywhere with me.”

She took the proffered flowers and leather bottle from him. It felt ice cold as if from a refrigerator. 

“I had it in the stream for a while and the water is cold and clear. I found the flowers on the bank as I was chatting with an Otter.”

She wrinkled her forehead at his words. “You say the strangest things,” as, laughing and shaking her head, she opened the door wide in silent invitation.

“You have to say the words, Gracie,” he said. His tone deepened, becoming serious.

Not sure what to think, she playfully took his hand, ignoring the rush of energy and heat that took hold of her. “Lleu Cerne, your name sounds like a Swiss Canton. Please, come in.”

Slouch, eyed Argentea balefully from the chair on the hearth. A peel of laughter came from the garden. Meredith’s laughter, Grace thought.

     He poured the amber liquid from the ancient leather bottle with great care. It glowed amber, in the sparkling, crystal glasses, Grace had set ready. Cerne looked at her as if assessing how much he should give her. Grace busied herself with the platter of fresh grapes from her vines, dried and fresh elderberries and cheese, as soft as butter, from her sheep. All would go well with the seed crackers she’d baked that morning.

It was as if he belonged, for now at least, in her kitchen. He walked the floor, stirred the soup, sniffing with unconstrained delight, at the earthy aroma of early squash, potato and herbs simmering in the leaf-green pot.

     “Please, sit. Eat,” she said, indicating the platter.

He nibbled a grape as if it were the first he’d tasted, whispering words over the food in blessing.

“You’re Pagan then?” Grace asked.

“Oh indeed,” he laughed, as if holding a mystery to himself. “I am that, but I don’t take well to putting labels on m’self.” His words rolled off his tongue in a soft burr.

     When Grace stood to bring the food, he put a hand on her arm. “Allow me to serve you. Are not the words to the rite of food serving, let the Priestess be seated while the Priest serves?” 

     She smiled up at him, an open sunny smile and a little more pain-etched grief eased away. She remembered the rites Meredith taught her and the words he spoke, remaining seated while he served the steaming soup and broke the corn bread with his lean brown hands.

     Before sitting, he raised her to her feet, handing a glass of the amber liquid to her. A tiny knife appeared in his hand from out his layered clothing. For a moment, Grace saw the blade glint. Lleu, ignoring her startled look, handed it to her, handle first. He knelt at her feet, holding up the glass that, for a moment, appeared as a clay chalice, wreathed with vine leaves. Words remembered, flowed. She plunged the tip of the knife into the liquid, stirring three times. “As the Athame is male,” she chanted, “and the cup is female,” he intoned, “conjoined they bring blessedness,” Grace sang, her voice clear and bright, “and oneness in truth,” finished Lleu, his eyes not leaving her face, as she took the first sip and then, hesitantly, kissed his proffered lips. If there had been music, it would have paled into insignificance at the sound she heard as their lips touched, of wind in cornfields and rustling leaves. If the sun were shining, it could not have brought the flush of heat to her body or the melting sensation in her belly.

     He steadied her with a hand on her shoulder as he took the glass from her nerveless fingers, taking a sip himself. “Well that’s done it,” he said, his eyes not leaving her face. They ate in silence. Grace thought the liquid he poured tasted of honey and salt combined, of the finest wine and the simplest sweet grape, of sunshine and ozone, on her tongue. Her own simple soup was pungent with herbs of earth and moss.

When they’d eaten, Lleu led her to her favourite chair by the hearth and, pulling up a stool at her feet, began to play. His Uilleann pipes, skirled in sweet, haunting tones, a music that brought tears to her eyes in joy and grief combined.

     Drifting with the music, Grace walked again with Meredith through the orchard, she’d lovingly tended. Talking to the trees as friends who understood, together they planted younger trees. They pruned ancient apple, pear, plum and cherry. They later grafted young, vigorous stock, from new trees to failing elders, feeding them liberally with manure from chickens and goats.

     It was the sound of the kettle whistling that brought Grace back to herself. Only one lamp remained lit, the kitchen was clean and tidy and the bottle of amber liquid in its leather bottle, sat on the kitchen table next to the orchids, in a chalice of autumn-coloured leaves that wound around the stem and into the cup. There was no sign of Lleu, and Grace knew he was gone. He left her a longing to know more and a warmth in her bones, where pain no longer dwelt.

     Wood baskets were filled, dishes done and the whole room, shone with a glow not of this world. Argentea, his silver-grey hound, lay on the hearth. He raised his huge head to regard her through eyes the colour of Lleu’s wine, before laying it on her feet. A throw, the colours of all the seasons combined, was across her lap, soft and delicate yet warm. She knew it held stories and she would find her way through their weavings as time passed. She looked closely at the colours of autumn, seeing corn and wheat in golden yellow and green. A figure ran free through the woven landscape.

     “Lughnasadh Night…” she whispered, “Lleu or Lugh,” She sighed. “It’s the night of sacrifice.”  

     With more strength in her limbs than she’d had in a long time, Grace climbed the stairs to bed. Argentea followed on her heels and settled himself comfortably on one side of her bed. “Are you staying with me then?” She swore the hound grinned, as Slouch moved from his chair and curled on the bed next to him.

     She undressed in candlelight, not wanting to spoil the glow in the house or the feeling it engendered. Argentea groaned as she slipped into bed next to him. He settled, his head in her lap. Dreams were rich and full-bodied, of wine and food, peat and oak-moss, indistinguishable from the taste of Lleu’s lips on hers. Sensations overwhelmed, lean hands moved over her, full, warm lips drank from her liquid places, leaving her trembling and spent. “Well that’s done it.” Lleu said in her mind before he filled her anew with his life force.

6

On the anniversary of Meredith’s death, Grace worked in the orchard, her fingers busy checking that old and new trees thrived. She felt Meredith close, hearing her voice clearly…

“Gracie, when I taught you about Magick, it was to instil in you the awareness to truly experience life. You have an innate love of all things natural, but if you’re not aware in the present moment, much is missed. When you work, or sit in nature, are you undistracted? Do you drink it in with all your senses or just one or two? Can you say you breathe leaves, taste their odour, colour, essence? Do you realise when you shed hair and skin, moisture droplets as you sneeze or laugh, so do the trees and every other creature that inhabits your world? Spiders and microscopic mites teem, leaving little particles of themselves everywhere. A tree sheds leaf, bark fragments, twig, branch and seedpod; drops of water and sap from their woody skins fall, just as the cells, known for a while as Meredith or Grace, fly off to become something else. As you breathe, you breathe their essence in minute particles. In turn, they, yours. How can you then say you are separate, that you have no knowledge of one another? The trick is to remember what it is to be tree, animal, bug or bird …in fact, all things. Part of you already does have memory of it. Its own Signature.

Gracie, the past is done; let me go. I’m still here in the wind, the trees …everywhere. Look to your future with joy. Find healing in the Magick that is you, for I …why, I’m still made of all those scraps and wild-gatherings.”

Grace whooped aloud at this. “That’s it, the business name! Scraps and Wild Gatherings.”

Laughter echoed. Trees shook in wild mirth. Leaves brushed her cheek… gentle fingers of memory.

7

Grace moved with ease through the dawn light. It was spring and wildflowers bloomed underfoot. She was careful not to trample them in passing, aware as she was of every scrap of being that fought for life each day, throughout the turning seasons. It was her birthday. Today, she was a quarter century old. A smile that never quite left her face, since her brief time with Lleu, deepened. She stepped onto the path that led to the village.

     That was how Luke Kernow first saw Grace Ludlow. Argentea, at her side, greeted him with a low, cautionary growl. He walked the lane toward the farm restaurant he’d heard needed strong hands to help in the garden and kitchens. Scraps and Wild Gatherings, he loved the sound of it. He stepped back so as to appear in her line of sight without startling her. She was slender and what should have been fragility, showed as strength in the tilt of head and long-legged stride. Nut-brown hair, left to blow free, brushed her shoulders in curling skeins. She carried a basket and was obviously heading toward the village. His heart did a curious, flip-flopping thing; a salmon wriggling on a line came to mind. Is that how fast a man can be caught then?

     For a second Grace hesitated, placing her hand on Argentea’s head as the man approached. Lleu? No, of course not, this man looked groomed and tidy in comparison. He was tall and lean, carried a backpack and a small grip in his hand. His stride was confident, even cocky, she thought …and yet. There was something about the eyes, a familiarity. They both stopped, taking each other’s measure.

     Luke broke the silence, holding out his hand. “Hi, Luke Kernow. I’m looking for Scraps and Wild Gatherings. I heard there’s work to be had there.” His voice held the hint of Australia that flattened vowels and rolled words together. He was brown from the sun, his handshake, firm. His eyes, she saw, were the green of oceans before storms.

     “Grace Ludlow,” Grace replied. “Well, looks like you’ve found what you’re looking for then!” He noticed, her eyes were almost violet in the growing light. 

     “Yes. Looks like I have.” His smile broad and cheeky, he bent to ruffle Argentea’s fur, letting him sniff at his hand. To his surprise and Grace’s, the hound rubbed against him.

     From the woods, they both heard a deep-bellied laugh and watched as a young Stag bound away.

Exchanging startled looks, Grace turned back toward home. “Come on then, Luke Kernow. You want work, do you? What do you have to offer? The vines are close to bud burst and I need help in the preserving room and kitchen.”

     “I’m handy, Grace,” he grinned, summing up her trim figure in a glance, “and, I know much about plants.” They reached the farm and he nodded to the barn. “I’ll just stash my stuff in there for now,” he indicated the bag on his shoulder, which for a moment looked like a music case, “then take a look at those vines for you, will I? He strolled away, humming in a rich baritone. “Oh, if you need a musician to entertain, I’m your man.”

     “Well, first things first,” she called to him. “There’s someone else come to meet you and he’s the toughest to please.”

     A large cat slouched along toward him, sniffed his boot, much as a dog would and, without a backward glance, jumped onto the stone wall to sit, washing his backside. “So that’s a yes then?” Luke’s laugh was rich and deep.

     “Well, that’s done it.” Grace whispered.

     “Blessed Imbolg, Gracie,” came the reply from everywhere.

Walk softly… dream a little… Awen /|\

Art and words copyright Penny Reilly, Beyond the Gate Studio, all rights reserved.